2 Days - My Attempt At Quitting Continues

So, I've made it to almost 48 hours.  4 more hours and it will be two complete days.
Yesterday is a bit of a blur, although I do know that I did not touch a single cigarette.  I did pig out though, and that is not the way to quit.  I cannot replace one addiction with another.  It's okay though, I did it on purpose.  I've been down this road before and I know what happens to most people when they quit smoking.  They blow up like balloons.  The waist size increases and they get huge faces.  They get FAT.

I've been there before.  Right now I am going through a life changing crisis/experience/experiment if you will.  I'm a diabetic, but not bad enough to be on meds.  I have high blood pressure, but it's being controlled by meds.  I also take meds for my high cholesterol.

Smoking is not doing me any favors at all.  I am personally tired of being a slave to Philip Morris, maker of Marlboro cigarettes.  I am sick, yes, literally sick of giving my hard earned money to them.  They have lied to us for years, and through the lies, they know that once the hook is in our mouth, that breaking loose is almost impossible.

I understand that I will always have a craving for cigs.  I know this.  I've been through it.  I know because I have quit for a year, and just as quick, I was hooked again.

I will tell you this though, it is the most potent drug, as far as addictive properties, that I have ever taken.  I have never had an issue quitting anything else, and staying off it.  Nicotine, however, is my ultimate weakness.

Well, it's day two.  Like I said before, I'm not going to try and preach to you that you should quit along with me.  You will do so if you ever please.  Chances are that you are too weak to quit.  No, it's not an insult.  I am and have been a weakling as well.  I am just trying to muster up enough strength to do this for a few days at a time, so that I can muster up more strength.

It's a process that has to be taken one step at a time.  I decided on going cold turkey, and it is extremely difficult.

So what do I feel like today? I feel a bit empty.  Sad.  I feel as if I am missing something.  It's okay though, this will come and go.  As far as the food goes, today, I will control what I eat.  Yesterday, being my first day, I allowed myself to pig out.  Today, is different though.  I have a little more control today.  I am a little less weaker, and a little bit stronger.

If you are trying to quit as well, I wish you all the luck in the world.  Take it one step at a time.